2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."
As previously mentioned I have been going through some difficult things lately and have just been having a hard time in general. Things have gotten better, but it's hard to not feel like yourself for such a lengthy period of time. I have had glimpses of feeling normal, but I am just not there yet. A good friend of mine gave me a book called "Praying Through the Tough Times" and although some of it is more aimed at those who have had a death near to them, there is still some really good stuff that I am getting out of it. The top verse was the one to the short devotion that I read today. I feel like I have accepted some things that have happened, but I am just having a hard time knowing HOW things are going to get better from here. I realized in reading this that sometimes we need to stop with all the "how's" and just simply trust that God will guide us and it WILL get better. God's grace is sufficient for us and we really need not worry "how" because it will be revealed. Instead of all the "how's" I should spend that time in his word and in prayer because that will be far more beneficial than wasted worries.
Through these difficult times I have realized a few things and it has done a few things that may not have otherwise been realized.
-I feel that God was preparing me for what was about to happen with the spiritual growth I experience. If I had not had that, I think things would look completetly different for me right now.
-I have also experienced more maturity through these past few months because I have been broken and forced to trust in his perfect will for me.
-I feel I have more understanding and compassion for more people.
-I feel that this situation is bringing greater understanding and restoring that could not have been opened up unless the situation had happened.
Sorry if that was hard to follow, but I still just can't open up completely. But the gist of it is that I am still having a bit of a hard time, but I am getting better, and I am seeing God work.
I am weak but He is strong.
